As much as I have tried to have a positive outlook on this whole house thing-- this week has been tough. I am living amongst boxes upon boxes and not sure to unpack or leave them...
I feel totally and completely out of control. There is not one thing in this situation that I can control. I don't like it, I don't like it at all.
So I guess you can say that I have been in a bit of a funk. I've been going through the motions of life this week, but just kind of apathetic.
This morning I woke up to two text messages that were too perfect to be coincidental. One from a close friend encouraging me to pick my bible back up and get back into the 40 day challenge. The other from my cousin with a song that she had heard this morning and wanted to send me to encourage me.
I might be dumb sometimes, but I'm not THAT stupid. I knew the Lord was using those two people to draw me back to Him.
So I dug my bible out of my "desk" box and started back where I left off. Psalm 5.
As I read these words, a lightbulb went off in my head. I have been playing victim. I've let the devil get to me and tear me down. I've been doubting that the Lord is good and has HIS best for me.
So today, I've given up control. I realize that this situation, which I see as totally negative, could be the Lord protecting us from something. I know His plan is greater than mine and that He doesn't want to harm us, but has HIS best for us.
I am also confident that I am not the only one that needed to read and realize this today. I've surrendered the situation to Him, so no matter the outcome, I will rejoice in Him and be glad. I hope some of you, regardless of your situation, will do the same.