March 7, 2017

I'm still here! Barely!

Oh my goodness.

I just sat down at my computer for the first time in what feels like centuries. The little bit of working that I've been doing has all be on my phone while nursing. I have a RARE moment with big boys content and playing and a sleeping baby boy (who actually is waking up as I type this).

I just wanted y'all to know I am still here, barely hanging on, and I have ten boat loads of pictures to share... so I'm going to do a bit of a photo dump. But if you're not already follow me on instagram I post there almost daily!

Being a mom of three is NO joke. Sawyer is five weeks old today and nursing every 2-3 hours around the clock. I haven't slept longer than 90 minutes in 5 weeks. My body, for the most part is healing, I go back to the doctor tomorrow... but I can definitely tell on the days I over-do it. We've had lots and lots of help. Bryan had three weeks off and then my mom took a day off and my dad has helped with the big boys. I am finally getting the hang of it- but a little exhausted. I told Bryan last night that my 10 minute shower once he's home for the day feels like a day at the spa after having a boy touching me, nursing, climbing on me... etc... all day long. I love it, I do, but it is wearing me out!

My big boys LOVE their baby. Like love love love. There hasn't been any jealous- just two big helpers. They fight over holding him and playing with him- they're as smitten as the rest of us.

Rhett turned 4 last week- I need to blog his 4 year old update- so that will be coming soon. But we had a little party with our family and some of his friends. He had a really great birthday. We also had newborn pictures taken and I am mentally working on a post of all my favorite newborn things. So stay tuned for all those as our life returns to normal a little bit.

So I'll leave you with this cute face. He is an absolute doll and growing like a weed. We are so happy with our new family of FIVE.

(ALSO-- I opened up my free accountability group on Facebook yesterday. If you want to join us-- for fitness, weight loss, clean eating, relationship, religious, mom life... etc support-- you're more than welcome! Email me for more info!)

February 5, 2017

Sawyer's Birth Story

Where do I even start? This is going to be long-- and mostly for my own memory-- here we go.

Last Monday (1/30) I took the boys to school, picked up donuts and came home to work on my business taxes. I worked for about 30 minutes, got up to make myself an iced coffee, sat back down and all of the sudden a haze went over my head. I don't know how else to explain it except it felt like my whole mind was foggy, my vision went out and it scared the crap out of me. I grabbed my water cup and took a big drink of water and it snapped me out of it. I called Bryan, because the biggest thing that scared me was that I was home by myself. I checked my blood pressure, and it was borderline high but nothing different than it had been and then immediately went to the couch to lie down. I debated calling my doctor- I REALLY didn't want to- but my dad suggested that maybe they'd know why that might happen and it might be an easy fix, so I called and my doctor wanted to see me for an appointment that afternoon.

My dad and grandma came over to stay with me until my appointment and then pick up the boys from school, and Bryan drove me to my appointment. We had taken our bags with us every other time just in case, this time I wasn't even entertaining the idea that we might need them so we left everything at home. My blood pressure at my appointment was borderline high again and I tried to explain what happened to my doctor. She decided to send me up to triage for monitoring and blood work just to make sure I wasn't getting preeclampic. So back to triage we went.

...then the fun started. My head had been hurting all day and I'd taken tylenol with no relief and that usually did the trick with some food. So they gave me some Percocet and Bryan and I played "Heads Up" and I basically laid in the dark room like every other time-- this time my head kept hurting and my blood pressure stayed high... and for the first time Sawyer decided to start causing problems. He had a sharp deceleration in his heart rate- from like 187 to 54 which brought the nurse in running to reposition me. It was the first time in all of my monitoring that this had happened, and isn't super uncommon when you're having contractions, but I wasn't. So my doctor ordered an Ultrasound to check on his size and on my fluid levels. We were excited to get to go see him and he did NOT cooperate. He had his hands and feet by his face. But everything else looked ok and they had him measuring right on track- about 6 lbs 6 oz. So we went BACK to triage and they decided they wanted to watch us for one more hour and then if all was well send me home to come back again the next day to see my doctor... and then he had another deceleration which got us checked into the hospital over night to watch him.

The next several hours are a blur. He had 10 or so decelerations between 6 PM-2 AM. They weren't letting me eat and I kept having to lie in really funky positions. Bryan ran home to shower and take care of our dogs and grab our bags at one point and I think I really just tried to sleep off and on. At 2 AM the nurse ran in and I could tell she was really concerned about something. He was in some kind of a weird rhythm that was very concerning but she turned me and we got him out of it. I made the mistake of looking up the rhythm and freaked myself out and at that point I knew it was getting serious. She told me that the doctor on call was aware of what was going on and had basically said I wasn't going to be pregnant much longer and that I could kind of prepare myself for an induction the next morning.

Then around 3 AM he had a deceleration that lasted over 8 minutes. I was sound asleep and 5 nurses ran in my room and I had flip all over and at one point a more seasoned nurse looked at my nurse and said "Go call the doctor RIGHT now". And then I knew I was about to go for a C-Section. They finally got his heart rate back up to the safe range and left the room. Bryan had slept through EVERYTHING, so I woke him up and told him what was going on and before I could finish the lights were on and the nurse told me we were going for an Emergency C- Section because they were worried about Sawyer and at that point it was evident he wouldn't be able to tolerate normal labor. I had Bryan immediately call my mom (who lived about 40 minutes from the hospital) and it was less than 10 minutes until they had me in the OR getting prepped for surgery. It really is such a blur. I was greeted by a familiar face- probably a sign from God that He had it under control- a friend from nursing school ended up being my OR nurse who sat with me while I got my epidural and just really helped me calm down and take in what was happening. They got the epidural in and brought Bryan back (my mom pulled in the parking lot as they were bringing Bryan back to the OR) and within minutes we were meeting our baby boy. I completely lost it when I heard him crying for the first time- to say I was concerned is a huge understatement.

 Bryan got to go back to my room with him and met my mom there.
He was born at 5 lbs 14 oz. 18 3/4 inches long. And perfect and beautiful in every way. He had a little heart murmur and some trouble breathing so he got to go to the nicu for the first 12 hours of his life.
...and that's the story of how me almost fainting ended up with an emergency c-section in the middle of the night.

I think the two things are completely unrelated but I couldn't be more grateful for my doctor trusting her instincts to have me monitored that day or we wouldn't have known what was going on with him. They're still not sure what was causing the decelerations, he could have been pulling on his cord, laying on it... or who knows. They sent my placenta for testing so maybe we will know soon. But I am SO thankful that we were in the right place at the right time.

We then spent all week at the hospital and found out that Sawyer has a minor heart defect. And that's all going to have to wait for another post. We are all in love with our baby and so grateful that he is here safely. I am recovering from my c-section and trying to soak in all these days of newborn goodness.

So meet Sawyer Anthony Buettemeyer. My littlest love. Born 1/31/2017 at 3:54 AM at 36 weeks 1 day (same as big brother Rhett!). More to come!

January 30, 2017

36 weeks!!

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 36 weeks!

Size of baby: Baby is the size of a head of romaine lettuce/cantelope. (19-22 inches, 6 lbs)

Maternity Clothes: My maternity shirts are showing my belly now. I am living in my favorite VS sweat pants, yoga pants and XL t-shirts which are also starting to show my belly... I couldn't tell you the last time I put on "real" clothes.

Gender: Baby BOY! Sawyer Anthony. 

Movement: His movement has slowed some because I literally think he's running out of space. He's pretty active in the late morning and early evening. And likes to wake me up at 3 AM every single night (that's just a sign of things to come I think).

Sleep: I've been sleeping okay. I have absolutely no problem falling asleep (on the couch at 8 pm ever night ;)) but I'm up every hour going to the bathroom... so that's fun. Also still waking up hungry at 3 AM and usually hurting so I take a bath and go back to be at 4 until the boys wake up sometime around 6.

What I miss: My pre-pregnancy jeans. For some reason I've been thinking a lot about them the last few days... goal is to be back in them by next fall!

Cravings: Salad. SO WEIRD. I know. Specifically a salad that a friend brought with dinner one night that I am now obsessed with- it's mixed lettuce and spinach, dried cranberries, pecans, cheddar cheese and apples. SOOOOO good. I've been eating it every day and actually had it at 10 AM yesterday. And Cafe Latte Shakeology. I haven't been drinking Shakeology much this pregnancy because it hasn't sounded good, but the last two weeks I've been wanting it every day.

Symptoms: CONTRACTIONS. Lots and Lots of BH Contractions this weekend. Makes me think he's coming soon hopefully! I was dilated to a 1 at my appointment last week so we will see! He's dropped and my indigestion is SO much better. I've been having some leg cramps... otherwise feeling VERY third trimester and very ready to have this baby boy!

Favorite Moment this week: I don't know. This week I've started to get ambivalent (I think thats the right word) about his delivery. While I am so excited and ready to have him here, I also realize how much our lives are about to change. It mostly makes me a little sad for Rhett not to be my baby anymore. Rhett and I had a couple of days just us this week and it was really good for us both. He's been super clingy with me and starting to act out a little about the baby coming so I know it's going to be a big transition for him. So this week I guess my favorite moments were just the ones enjoying time with my family before we become a family of 5! 

That's all for today! If I make it to 37 weeks I'll be back with another update next Monday-- but that will be a pregnancy record for me since I've yet to make it to 37 weeks so far with any of my pregnancies! Happy Monday! 

ALSO: I wrote "A Letter to my Third Born" for Northwest Arkansas Mom's Blog last week that you might want to check out! You can click that link to read it!

January 28, 2017

Get Out Of Debt- AN UPDATE

It's been a little while since I've done a get out of debt update. But we have still been making progress!

In November we started looking at refinancing our house. We were paying PMI on our original loan but since our property value has increased in the five years we've been here if we refinanced we'd lose the PMI and we changed our mortgage to a 15 year. We closed on our new loan at the end of December and our house payment just changed a couple hundred dollars-- but in the long run we are paying so much less interest.

In November/December we also paid off AND closed all of our credit cards. I think we had ten card companies to call and cancel, several of which we had no idea existed from several years ago. That was a freeing moment when all those cards were paid off and closed and no longer lingering over our heads!!! I swear- since then we've probably gotten 2 or more credit card apps in the mail a day! NO THANK YOU!

We are kind of in a pay-off standstill right now until the baby comes. We want to make sure we have enough cash to pay for his birth and all of the medical expenses and then whatever is left we can throw at the debt after he's born. When the lady called to the give me the estimate of what we would owe- while it is A LOT of money- it didn't knock the wind out of me. I remember after we had Rhett, we had no idea how we were going to pay for it. They were going to make us take out a loan from a bank, we talked about borrowing money from family... and then they ended up letting us do payroll deduct since I worked at the hospital but it was a BIG, SCARY ordeal. This time, we'll be paying cash- as soon as the bills come- and we will move on. Financial Freedom.

It's great because we are making such positive steps and we FINALLY see the end in sight. We'll be saying GOOD-BYE to student loan payments in March, Lord willing... and then we'll just have the cars and our house to pay down. There is really no better feeling.

It's been a long journey. LOTS of ups and downs, but now that the end is in sight we feel like we are sprinting towards the finish line. 2017 should be the year that we are debt free other than our mortgage-- THAT blows me away.

I probably won't do another update until after Sawyer is born and we see how the dust settles. But I've had several emails from people asking what book I use and I HIGHLY recommend Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover as a good starting place!

More to come!

January 23, 2017

35 weeks!!!

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 35 weeks!

Size of baby: Baby is the size of a Honey Dew Melon. (19-22 inches, 5.5 lbs)

Maternity Clothes: My maternity shirts are showing my belly now. I am living in my favorite VS sweat pants, yoga pants and XL t-shirts which are also starting to show my belly... I'm trying to stay away from jeans and booties (aka real clothes) these days. SO MUCH SWELLING.

Gender: Baby BOY! Sawyer Anthony. 

Movement: Yes moving a lot. Yesterday I felt like he moved all day long. He especially likes to cram his foot into my ribs. It's great. :)

Sleep: Almost nonexistent. I sleep for 45 min to an hour at a time before I have to pee. Then I am awake from 2-4 almost every night starving. I think he's just preparing me for when he's here and I'm not sleeping. (yep, this. Just add leg cramps this week. and basically I am tired.)

What I miss: Feeling normal. I think I say that every week. I'm just ready to feel good again but I am enjoying the last few weeks of feeling him move and being thankful that my body can do this but third trimester is ROUGH. (yep this again)

Cravings: Donuts. But i haven't had any. Ice cream. I did go buy some mint chocolate chip ice cream this week and it tasted so yummy. Burgers and Steak over the weekend. I can't eat a whole lot at a time so I've been grazing or basically eating 24/7.

Symptoms: Leg cramps, indigestion has gotten better- I think because he's dropped some. I can't breathe. I was completely out of breath just walking Rhett into preschool this morning and had to sit in the car and catch my breath before I could drive- yes it was THAT bad. Otherwise just feeling VERY pregnant. Living in sweat pants and top knots. Ready to meet my baby boy.

Favorite Moment this week: I had a lot of good moments this week. I got to spend some one on one time with Hudson on Friday, which doesn't happen very often. I'm starting to feel bad that my time is going to be so much more divided soon and wanted some special time with him. I just absolutely love having a 6 year old. 6 is my favorite age yet and he really is the best big brother to Rhett and is so excited for Sawyer to be here. Also the boys went to Joplin with G-Pa to spend the night Saturday so Bryan and I literally did NOTHING all day yesterday but lay on the couch and watch reality TV- Specifically Celebrity Apprentice (I really like Arnold as the host!) and Survivor. It was heavenly. And we've been SO blessed by friends who've brought dinner almost every other night for the last week. It has been such a huge help for me. My blood pressure has stayed low and we've just chugging along. I go back to the doctor on Wednesday as long as nothing changes between now and then but basically i am ready for him to come any time now-- but one more week at least would be ideal! 

That's all for today! Happy Monday! 

January 20, 2017

A 34.5 week update!

Well this week has been more of the same. A few hours of monitoring at the hospital and then back home to keep taking it easy. Much easier said than done at this point. I'm only two days shy of 35 weeks at this point so we are just chugging along. I have been trying REALLY hard to keep it low key and listen to my body. I can tell when I am overdoing it, and if I go lay down in the dark I feel a lot better. Sawyer is measuring a week ahead still so if we can hang on another week or two we should be in the clear for a healthy baby born around the same time his brothers were born. We are SO ready to meet him.

I did pack hospital bags. baby bag and the bag for the boys this week. So that's done in case something happens and I don't have a chance to come home and do it before we have him. I deliver at a hospital about 30 minutes away so it's not an easy trip back and forth.

My grandma has basically been living at my house this week. She has been a HUGE help. She helped me get some meals in the freezer and basically cleaned my whole house. She kept the boys while I was at the hospital on Wednesday night... my dad's been out of town, which hasn't helped my anxiety at all but he gets home tonight and all my helpers will be back around.

We've also had dinner delivered a few times this week from sweet friends. It has been so helpful. I'm not good at letting people help, but I am trying to say yes and just take care of Sawyer and I right now. Bryan's home today for the weekend and we're just going to try to keep it low key and keep this baby boy cooking! Lots of movies and puzzles and games with the boys, enjoying the last few days/weeks of being a family of 4.

Happy Friday!!

January 16, 2017

34 Weeks! We made it!

This picture was actually 29 weeks but I just got them back this week and LOVE them!
Photo Credit: Stephanie Denton Photography
Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 34 weeks!

Size of baby: Baby is the size of a Pineapple. (19 inches, around 5 lbs)

28 wks vs 33.5 wks
Maternity Clothes: Yep. All Maternity when I get dressed. Otherwise yoga pants and XL t-shirts... I'm trying to stay away from jeans and booties these days. SO MUCH SWELLING.

Gender: Baby BOY! Sawyer Anthony. 

Movement: Yes but more distinct movements which are more uncomfortable for me. He flipped from one side to the other last night and it was almost like labor pains. YEOCH!

Sleep: Almost nonexistent. I sleep for 45 min to an hour at a time before I have to pee. Then I am awake from 2-4 almost every night starving. I think he's just preparing me for when he's here and I'm not sleeping.

What I miss: Feeling normal. I think I say that every week. I'm just ready to feel good again but I am enjoying the last few weeks of feeling him move and being thankful that my body can do this but third trimester is ROUGH.

Cravings: Nachos. Coffee. I wanted steak this weekend which is unusual because I typically don't like red meat when I am pregnant. Been eating lots of berries and yogurt.

Symptoms: Swelling in my hands, feet and face. My wedding rings don't fit anymore. My socks leave marks. People keep telling me they can tell my face is swollen (thanks for that ;)). So I guess the end is near. My blood pressure has been surprisingly good. My check up last Wednesday was good. My doctor said short term goal was 34 weeks-- which we hit today! But long term we'd like to hang on til 36! She has me coming weekly right now. Then on Wednesday night my blood pressure shot up again and I had to go back and be monitored. Again. Thankful my lab work was ok and my blood pressure hung out in the ok zone so I was sent back home on modified bedrest. And here I am. Just hanging out. Other than yesterday morning, it's been pretty good as long as I am taking it easy. Hoping to keep on coasting until I go back to the doctor on Wednesday! 

Also:: My friend Jessica set up a Meal train for us yesterday. We've had several people ask how they can help and right now this is the biggest need so I can just rest and not have to worry about getting dinner on the table every night, especially since evenings tend to be when I am feeling the worst and my blood pressure is the highest. A family friend, who I love dearly, set us up with a whole weekend of meals last weekend and it was a HUGE lifesaver. Two of my good friends brought over a basket of snacks this past week and drinks for us and the boys. And legos for the boys (halleluljah, anything to keep them entertained right now!) It completely filled up our snack drawer and that has been the BEST for the boys because they can just go get their own snacks and caprisuns without needing my help. One of my sweet blog readers sent a pizza gift card last week and it came in SO handy yesterday when my blood pressure shot up and I was stuck on the couch. And my boys are ALWAYS thrilled with pizza! Anyways... just sharing that because I've had lots of emails and texts asking how you can help-- here is the link! 

Since I literally was confined to the couch all day yesterday we ordered pizza and had a LOTR marathon! 

Favorite Moment this week: Got to finish up the nursery for the most part and picked up these adorable hats for Sawyer that I had embroidered at a local boutique.

That's all for today! I may update later in the week after my doctors appointment. Otherwise I'll just be at home hanging out. Happy Monday!!

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